Rain

Don't you just love it when it rains? You sit there reading a good book, with the matching crashes of raindrops on the rooftop. The perfect time to listen to good music and just unwind. The perfect time to bury yourself in thick blankets... the room and the perfect atmosphere.

The only bad thing is, I hate being out for a long period of time when it rains.

Yet I love the kind of silhouette it makes on the window at night like when you're all cozy in bed, ready to get some good sleep!

You can call me weird, I'd take that as a compliment.

There's something so calming about it. I prefer the rain lashing down so hard that I couldn't hear anything anymore, just the music in my ears.

I just love dark and cold rainy days. Not just normal dark & normal cold... 

Really dark... and really cold rainy days.

People deserve to be happy

I have plenty of ups and downs in my life and I'm pretty sure, you've had them too.

When people get sad, they normally break down until they feel light and sort of forgot about their feelings. But when I get sad, I don't break down... I sit there, bottle everything up until I just couldn't hold it anymore. You wanna know why I bottle my emotions? Because I'm a wretched kid and every time sadness hits me, all I could think is myself rotting because I'm just... too... unhappy. That's why when I feel down, I do not cry. I do not wanna feel miserable. Bottling our feelings could make us look like happy people outside. But I don't think that's gonna help... it's okay to cry. Nothing's wrong with that, we all feel sad and cold sometimes. I recently learned that keeping things to yourself and pretending to be happy isn't such a good idea at all.

I'm a pretty sad person... I cannot answer a million questions right now but sincerely, I am. That's why I'm working on radiating positive vibes! I wrote this, because I feel unhappy right now. But sitting here and being all gloomy isn't gonna change anything. I am learning to be as cheery as I was before because I deserve to be happy!

 Good Night.

Julie

I'm an average girl. I live in a normal house, go to a normal school and live a normal life. I may not be popular, but yeah, I have good and irreplaceable friends and we're all inseparable. On weekends, I don't always go out although I want to but I get lazy so usually I postpone our trips to the mall or anywhere just around the City. I'm the type of girl who would rather wear over-sized shirts and men's boxers at home rather than spaghetti straps and super short shorts. I like my hair messy. When I tie it into a bun, I like it messy too. I never complain about not getting thigh gaps or dimples or a slender body. Well, I rant about it sometimes but deep down, with all modesty, I don't care. Because I know I'm never getting one! I mean, who cares if you don't have a slender body when you've got a pretty good sense of humor? I'm the type of girl who does something stupid and regrets it... but then I do it all over again. I'm the type of girl who laughs loudly & doesn't care because every time I laugh, I always think: "Goal in life: be happy" that's it, that's what always comes into my mind when I crack out. I'm the type of girl who gets flooded by euphoria every time I see my friends or family happy. I'm the type who complains about not being able to go to concerts. I sing a lot in the shower, which annoys everyone else in the house but I still don't care because hey, I'm singing my favorite song! I'm the type who writes about absolutely everything in my journal... when I see an adorable cat on my way home, I write about it. When I see a hamster with squishy cheeks, I write about it. Even those accidental glances with my crush... believe me, I write about it. You wanna know why? Because I'm the type of girl who loves to write about her life someday... telling everybody it's a happy story although I've gone through different and countless obstacles. I wanna let everyone know it's an "ugly-pretty" type of story, if you know what I mean. The reason why I wrote this, is because I just wanted to unleash this... this thing inside me and I really don't know what term to use but it's this thing I've been hiding all along because I'm different... the kind of different where nobody's almost like me. I'm not sure if that's a good thing but, that's alright. I know I'm different from everybody else. We're all different from everybody else. I keep a really long bucket list and nobody ever knows about it. What it contains and where it's hidden. It's a special kind of bucket list. You see, I'm a secretive person... an introvert. I don't easily tell other people what I feel inside, especially to my parents. But when I do, I always lie about what I feel. I bottle my emotions up and when I'm finally alone, that's where I usually break down. But it's different when I'm with my friends. I always spill everything out to them. I'm a happy person outside, yet a sad one inside. The reason why I always want to spend time with my friends is because I wanted to bury the sadness. Honestly, I am that type of girl. But most days, I'm a happy balloon! It just scares me because it might be one of the things that's gonna stop me from doing something I really love. I have so many things to do accomplish in my life. I'm getting there... I will get there.

I haven't really thought of a nice title for this post so I guess I'm gonna have to just leave it title-less.

...actually, I should have blogged about this months ago but I deleted my blog that time and I was too idle to renew it so I wasn't able to write about it. But now, since it's 3 in the morning and I have nothing to do, I thought of writing a little something about it.

This post is about a book I read and got hooked to. It's called "The fault in our stars" by the magnificent John Green. I don't know if you've read this book too but I think you've heard about it already since this book was talked about a lot on social networking sites.

When I first heard about the book, I had no thoughts about it since I thought it was just one of the books with nice covers and nice beginnings and  everybody's like: "Omg isn't this the book everyone else is talking about? Omg, I want this!" At first it was all like that but one time, couple of months ago, I went to the book store to buy some good reads and I noticed this book on the "Best-sellers" rack. I didn't know what happened there, but I grabbed the book from the rack and paid for it. When I got home, I read the book and surprisingly, I finished 10 chapters on the first night! I didn't know it was that addictive!

The fault in our stars! (omit the quality. I only took this photo with my iPod)

I wanted to blog about the story but I don't wanna be nicknamed "the spoiler" (lol) Although I know there are quite a lot of good reads this month, I still suggest this book to all the other bookworms out there who are in dire need of a good book! 

"Okay, maybe I'm not such a shitty writer. But I can't pull my ideas together, Van Houten. My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations."

Random post

I have a very eclectic taste when it comes to music. I listen to practically anything as long as it has a good rhythm and the lyrics have this... "substance" in them. I enjoy listening to rock and indie songs, probably because I grew up listening to them. As a kid, my dad and I would usually listen to a lot of REM and Led Zepellin songs, so... yeah. My friends consider my music taste uncanny because I prefer "not so mainstream" music unlike them. But there's nothing wrong with it. This is what I love listening to and no one has the right to change it.

Nowadays, I've seen a lot of people my age posting stuff on social networking sites saying they want to listen to this particular artist or band because they wanted to be "cool" and they don't wanna be like the "everybody-listens-to-this-except-me" type and it shocked the living daylights out of me. It's never "cool" to force yourself to like something because you wanna be like everybody else. Because you want people to look at you as a person who has this music taste other people have. "Good music taste". Let me tell you this, personally, there's no such thing as "bad" music. A lot of people these days say that modern and mainstream music suck. No. Some people just like to judge when it comes to other's music tastes because they aren't used to the music other people listen to. Just like me. There's nothing wrong with judging. As long as it's the good kind of judgement. Like you know, you just say stuff about the kind of music other people love but NEVER EVER criticize their music taste. I'm not used to mainstream music but I listen to a lot of them and after a couple weeks, they get wearisome and I delete them right away. You just have to love what you love. My point is, you don't have to pretend to like what you don't like. I'm not aiming this post at anyone, but I hope it helped.